Haiz...

Some matters are heart are simply difficult to articulate, or even be put down in words. Many times, it only express itself as a word of sigh~

Just woke up so my attitude is kinda F**ked. But my mind seems more awake then I was. Now that I recall what I just did, I feel like hitting myself in the nuts with a 12lb hammer. Was I so stupid as to give her the money again? The money didn't matter as addition to my coffer. I have considered it to be non-existent since months ago. And when she returned me the money las weekend, I knew it would come to this. That she will ask for it again. Fucking gamble with it again. I had planned on giving 500 of it to my sister so she can secretly open a bank account and finally have some decent savings. Now its gone. Why was I so stupid to be honest when all I had to do was to say that I have already banked in the money. Fuck. I am seriously quite pissed.

Heading off for father's day dinner now. Speaking of which, I can't even lift some 50 bucks to treat my dad. haiz.
I am off for now. Come back to blog again later before I book in.
JB.